Gimme a Boob! Gimme a dick! Gimme it all!

zara's picture

I was thinking about something today. I really like dick. I like the shape of it, the smell of it, the juice that it produces. There's nothing better than that feeling of initial penetration by a dick, feeling it part you, slide within, be gripped by your pussy muscles as if you were hugging it. I really, really like dick.

I also really like tits. As I was cruising through Victoria's Secret and trying to get glimpses of the chests of the women who were shopping around me. I was wondering which of them were benefitting from a great bra, getting their girls in prime shape. I wondered which were padded, which had big nipples, dark areolas... all that fun stuff. I love to fondle my own tits and even know when their consistency changes.

So it hit me. I really need to get myself a tranny for a lover.

The best of both worlds, especially in my case. A pre-op who still has that beautiful cock as well as having a set of titties for me to play with. It sounds great in theory. In reality I understand that most pre-ops want to get rid of their dick and don't like to identify with it. They're taking hormone replacements that would fuck with the size of that penis. The breasts would be smaller or fake.

But it was a nice thought.

I've always been fascinated with people who are gender dysphoric or in some other type of gender flux. I'm extremely transfixed by lesbians who look like hot young guys. I feel intimidated by drag queens who look better than I do on my best day. I can't look them in the eye, not because I'm afraid but because I feel I'm not worthy. This really incredible creature who is willing to buck the ultimate system. When you look at your gender and say: "Nope, this isn't me," I just love that.

I think I nearly sweated straight through my panties when one night I opened a blog by one of my Myspazz buddies, and discovered that she'd taken a series of pictures where she dressed in a suit and did a strip tease, slowly removing her clothing to reveal her chest bindings and then her DD chest. (Nipple rings and all!!) I giggled like an idiot for a couple hours afterward. I couldn't get over how much those pictures had twisted my mind in circles.

A boy who turned out to have tits? Dear Awesome! I was in heaven at the possibility of it. Sure, I understand that if those pictures were to have also contained pictures of her removing her pants, a vagina would have been at the pinnacle of her two long legs... but damn.

I'm more at ease around lesbians, even those who are rather butch. I've been hit on and approached by several over the years. The flirtation is much more respectful than I've ever had with men and I am never put off. It's extremely flattering and I end up apologizing profusely for not being gay. I would if I thought I could pull it off.

However, I own several dildos and vibrators. While they're great and do their jobs just fine, I would be a sad camper if I had to live a life without a living, blood engorged cock in it. I need that skin feeling, I need to feel that penetration. I need to grab onto the person it's attached to and hear them moan in my ear as they cum. Men may have their issues and I may have my issues with them, but that moment where they are the most vulnerable is enough to make me forget those issues, if only temporarily. I love a man's orgasm.

I'm feeling all over the place tonight, which is fitting for what keeps going on in my head.

I don't want to feel sexual and yet my hormones are going crazy. It's so fucking troublesome.

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chris toe furrr's picture

its clear now

by the way just like myspazz, this site ate my comment... ugh. good thing it was short lol. maybe my computer just sucks.

anyway i wanted to thank you for making it all clear to me now. i always wondered what may bisexual females like yourself saw in lesbians who looked like hot guys. it bothered me. because i like females who are extremely feminine and males who are extremely masculine. i like both, but separately and individually. it has always bugged me when guys act and dress feminine and girls who act and dress masculine. i should be more open minded since being bisexual myself i have no place to judge anything, but i cannot help my taste. maybe thats why im such a loner though. its hard to find anyone who meets my standards... anyway off the subject. im glad i finally understand why now, even though it still doesnt fit my taste, i can be at ease... no one has ever taken the time to explain it they just said "its what i like."

thank you for your blogs.

A budding bisexual?

I totally feel exactly the way you do about gender bending and androgeny! I've ALWAYS been fascinated with it, since I was a teenager (luckily, I grew up in the 80's, so I had lots of exposure to it!) As a matter of fact, right now I have a bumper sticker on my car that says "I did guys in eyeliner!" Nothing peaks my curiosity more...

My discovery of this fetish of mine was the beginning of my discovery of bisexuality. I never had even entertained the idea, until I met a "little boy" who was a girl....a dyke who dressed and acted like a man, and whose voice reminded me of a pubescent boy's. Well, I was GONE!....and let me tell you, my worry about whether I could get into the female genitalia was FIRMLY squashed. I also once had the fortunate opportunity to make out with a bi-sexual, pre-op tranny complete with a delectable set of tits! WOW is all I can say...I just wish we could have done more.

My advice, explore these feelings...you'll be gald you did! You don't have to give up dick, you're just adding tits :)

JIm's picture

Hmmmm.....

Maybe you could secretly try a tranny out. Take one out on a back road somewhere. Then when people ask you what you did last night, you can honestly tell them that you blew the tranny in your car. HAAAAAHHAHAHAHA.. Sorry, that was just fucking wrong.

Seriously, Z, I can't get beyond the fact that I think someone is gonna sweep you right off your fucking feet when you least expect it, just like the rest of us. You're like a bank vault. You've got something very valuable inside and some motherfucker has the right combination to open you up.

Hug the midget.
Luvyabye.

elsantogordo's picture

Suprise Suprise

Okay ... it's Bunny Ranch time! Let's find you someone to love... and when are you gonna create a picture about this idea like your Quentin peek? I wonder which of you wears the bridal dress.

Much Love & Adios!

Jaime

"Hey... it's a kind of magic."

jomadd's picture

Get in where you fit

Get in where you fit in......

Saint Everclear's picture

If only she felt this way ~.^

First time visiting the site and I run into this, I LOVE YOU. The world needs more openly sexual people, I'm tired of everyone being so goddamn restrained!
I'm male, though as you can see in my picture I sometimes don't look it. My name is Loren, I've got blond hair down to my shoulderblades, and I'm just 115 lbs, so I'm often the source of confusion #.^
For a long while I really thought I'd rather be a lesbian, and I still think it might be nice, but I've come to appreciate my member. I'd LOVE to have tits, but I like my deep voice and I don't think most people are ready to hire someone that far from the norm. I'm also hesitant to do anything until I've settled with a partner and know what they're comfortable with.
My current endeavor is Abby, who's a lovely Dom Bi female. The relationship she's just getting out of was with a very masculine but emotionally needy lesbian. She's beautiful, feminine, but strong, physically and personally.
I often forget that she's shorter than I, and I always feel intimidated by her, it's amazing. Last night I set off with the full intention of walking into her workplace, walking her into the back hall, pinning her against the wall and making her beg for me. I got there and I felt like a child, she smiled and I just melted.
::Sigh:: I want her so badly.

SimplySam's picture

I too LOVE a man's orgasm...

Since I am not a man, so I don't have a schlong (or even a schlort-lol), neither of us are lesbians yet we both have and appreciate nice racks...sadly all I have to offer is a nice pint of Ben & Jerry's??? And...Since I live in tranny central let me tell you...it'd take someone pretty fuckin' special because all the ones I ever see/have seen are totally tore up from the floor up. Bleeech! (Although I did get an AMAZING picture of one yesterday in my external inbox. I was impressed.)

Ben & Jerry's safely cures all that ails and troubles :-)

And wasn't Dan's analogy impressive? I wanna be a whole fireworks show...I am gonna will one for you too Z-a Cannadian fireworks show preferred???

Mens vs. Womens orgasm....

Dan in Vegas

Nothing compares to the female orgasm. It's longer, stronger and usually doesn't have to end the experience. I wish I could say the same for mens; it's like the sonic boom at the 4th of July fireworks show compared to....the entire 4th of July fireworks show.

Helena's picture

A Tranny?

Hey Zara!

You know when I read this, that I had to comment. I'm not sure what to say, but I think you know what I'm trying to get at. I didn't know you where so fixated with gender dysphoria. I have to say, I'm thrilled to find out.

-Helena

xoxo

Synaptic_Overload's picture

It is in deed "Awesome"

Well Z, as ever, you've managed to get everybody hot and bothered with your post, and for that we thank you...you always know how to hit the spot, if you know what I mean?.

But on a personal note, I can only say that I can't personally relate to the needing of a penis, but OMFG! how I love pussy, the look of it, its aroma, its taste...everything..actually, I love pussy so much much that if I was born a women, I'd be a lesbian, for that much is my love and devotion to women and to the precious gift they offer us men. And boobs, don't get me started on that one, I've always been a sucker for boobs (and as with pussy), love the variety there is shapes, sizes, colors, textures...I just plain and flat-out love and adore the female form, thank you existing.

So a female co-worker friend of mine and I came to read your blog and I couldn't believe it: she was actually blushing because of your blog, and not because of the topic, shame or whatever; but for no other reason than she was all hot bothered by it. I've been trying to make a move on this girl for a couple of months now, with good developments, but it only took an AZ's blog entry for her to allow me the final entrance..the golden ticket, if you would.

Now, we're just waiting for the working day to end for me to collect my prize and her to deliver, and for that I thank you, no doubt that whether is on Myspace, or wherever you're still awesome, and nothing indicates that'll ever change. Thanks again!

"He who's Authentic assumes responsability for being what he is, and accepts himself free from being who he is". Jean Paul Sartre

jenn_beautiful's picture

You gotta love the cock

Sometimes I think I have what it takes to be a lesbian , I think women are beautifully sexual creatures, but then I also struggle with loving the feel of the cock... If I didn't hear my boyfriends loud moaning right as he came inside of me - it just wouldn't be the same. I think I get more satisfaction just having him pleasure himself inside of me then I actually get from the sex... It's a sense of accomplishment like none other. Kudos Z - now I have to get some on my lunch break...

hotdonna's picture

Sissies sound like a close comparison ^_^

Coincidentally ~ this is a pet project of mine right now

Sissies are what I have been readin up on these days...

Boys with Boobs and dicks. Nowadays ~ its actually quite common for women to want a man with a perfect pair of tits & dick that you can have your cake & eat it (or suck) too ^_^. Im sure there is a transgender man out there that would like to keep his "manhood" & add a perfect pair of boobies... of course ~ if they want to keep their penis then they would be hormone free ~ just those boobies of theirs would be implants... Im sure they are still just as lovely to look at.

As for actual penetration ~ Im sure you could make em do that for you too

Only downside ~ you get just what they are called ~ A sissy... So I wouldnt be expecting a manly man to go with that dick... but you would have your way with em ^_^

~S~

I SO know where you're coming from ...

I've enjoyed looking at women, being with women, and so forth, but it's purely for sexual reasons and I could NEVER switch teams because I can't imagine living without a good, hard dick. The men they're attached to sometimes "need work," but what I get from their appendage has most often been worth every inch of effort. :)

Heather the Angel's picture

I want it all..I want it all..I Want It All.. And I want it Now!

(imagine that song by Queen playing in the background.)

I fucking Love Dick! Not any dick..mind you... But a nice long hard dick with a good girth on it. With a nice thick bulbous head that blushes when I pet it with my tongue. It also needs to have a nice set of balls accompanying it. Dicks are such interesting creatures. They come in varying sizes, colors and styles. Some adorned with jewelry, some with extra skin. One was a mammoth cock attached to cherry tomato balls.

I like to snuggle with my dick. Kiss it and rub it across my face. I like stroking it and and watching the little undulations within the ballsack. I like to get it so excited it spits down my throat. Fortunately, it's handler doesn't mind.

Now, boobs. Oh god how I love boobs! I am fortunate to have a great rack myself, so I don't have to want for boobs too much. But alas, I cannot use my own boobs as pillows.... sigh... a soft chin rest yes. But I can't lay my face across them and feel the soft sweet warmth cradle my face while I lightly flick the nipple with my tongue. Ok, well, I can, but that's only because I have an exceptionally long tongue.

Now, I love my big manly man. But it would be nice if on ocassion he had a nice big set of tits for me to snuggle with after a good deep dicking.... ;p

Wow. Thanks for getting me all excited this morning. I'm all hormoned up with no where to cum... heh heh

mistylou69's picture

*Sigh* I know how you feel...

I, too, have often wondered how great it would be to have a guy with a great dick and an awesome set of tits. I think I'd trip out, honestly. I don't know any straight guy that would have tits...so it would be a drunken mess...a fun mess, but none-the-less a mess in the end...lol.

You know how to get my office chair wet in the morning...damn it! ;)

xxxoooxxx
Misty

Hi Zara

Great blog as always!!

I can't relate to the wanting dick but somebody said they like girls that look like boys. I can relate to that. I think it is because I had a crush on an Asian woman that fit that description. We had one fabulous make-out session and that was it. I needed more and never got it.

oneillgraphics's picture

I've had it my whole life

My dick and I are like two different people somtimes. Women say that in honest joking but it is a reality of the life I’ve lived. More often that not my dick has pointed to one path while I try and steer towards another. Dose it get me in trouble? Not really. My dick has never done anything I didn’t want to do myself. I admire it’s diligence and I look up to it’s focus.

Do I idolize it? I’m not sure, I’m glad that there are women out there that do though. Sadly it has been my experience that most women treat it like a little fleshy curiosity and not a center of my sexual being. Why is it that a woman can covet her sexuality and the parts of them that attract men, but when a man does it’s considered “Simple Minded”?

I think that the day’s of men being ashamed for their fleshy little members should come to a close. We should have confidence on our little solders and also in ourselves. Women do say that the sexiest thing about a man can be his confidence.

dawn61036's picture

Boobies :)

Well once again I thank you Zara for getting me all hot and bothered at work...right now the mailroom geek looks yummy :)

I am bi-sexual and agree with you on many levels.

I always knew that I enjoyed everything about the male gentetalia but when I seen girl on girl action especially fondling and licking of the boobs, I was well very confused for a better lack of words. Which led to experimenting with other women, which led to a couple years of confusion...Was I gay??? No, I still wanted and needed the feal of a man inside of me, I still enjoyed playing with, holding and tasting dick.

So that is my experience. As for wondering whats under those shirts at victorias secret...I believe this is very normal, the female body is a work of art. And boobies are all so different and fun.

I feal as if I am now rambling, as my mind is...time to go :)

Peace Love & many Smiles...Dawn

Tsukikoneko's picture

:P

I so agree. And I love the androgynous...Its kind of like a bisexual surprise...

I am so in love with boys that look like girls and girls that look like boys...

:dies:

ChiChi227's picture

I totally agree!

There is something to be said for both. I too love a good hard dick, but damn if I don't get hot and bothered at a nice rack too! And you and I both know the reason I would make a terrible lesbian!

~ Christie

hey

hey honey you look hot wanna talk and hook up!

Eulalie_Cholmondeley's picture

.......

Interesting not much exprience with willies.

I am annoyed by my own breast..However I do not wish to be a boy either. Then again I am only eighteen and not a very lustful girl.

snarlyoldman's picture

Using My Dick

I'd be satisfied if the dick I had get in some pussy every now and again. I'm on a two year dry spell right now and it absolutely sucks!

snarly old man

I was better a few minutes ago than I think I am right now

Nerin's picture

Dirty Bird

You need to get some before you end up fucking a tranny in a back alley. Seriously. Bite the bullet and DO IT! Just don't get attached. ;) I have a date-ish type thing tomorrow. I might be riding the "baby's arm" very soon... LOL

Lisa The Great's picture

Sounds like you need a trip

Sounds like you need a trip to Thailand.....thoes lady boys are bloody hot, and they have legs that make a girl jealous.

I just need to eat more

To fit your qualifications.

Shut up! It's not gross, it's sexy.

Gordon AKA Gordon

inbred jed's picture

im buying

http://www.expedia.com/pub/agent.dll?tovr=-1294687291

zara's picture

Hmmm

Your point being?

Lucky!

I think Josh is offering you tickets to Saskatoon.

Gordon

inbred jed's picture

DTW

No Detroit first THEN Saskatoon. Jeff gets sloppy seconds.

zara's picture

Hillybilly pipe dreams

Yeah, not going to happen. But it's fun to dream, isn't it?

I Want It All, Too!

I swear, MySpace has stripped me of all my delusions of being unique.
I, too, really love dicks. I love everything about dicks. I can't live without dicks. And I love tits, all kinds. I love to look at them. I sometimes think I'm worse than guys when it comes to tits.
There was this 18 year old beauty that sat next to me at work who has a really great pair.
I miss them, I mean her.
It sounds like you really need some dick. Wish I could help you out with that, but I don't have one, and a strap on just ain't the same thing.

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