Woo Fucking Hoo!

[Disclaimer: This is my opinion. If you take offense to it and believe I am talking specifically about you, I probably am. Do I intend for it to hurt your feelings? Not in so many words. I just want to say my piece. Do with it what you will. I am fully aware that a good deal of you will get pissed off over this. And quite frankly? I don't care. I have my opinions just like I have my asshole. I like to use both of them whenever the mood so strikes me.]



I did something yesterday that I swore I would never do.

I commented on a blog that I didn't really want to comment on.

You see, I prefer to only leave comments when I so fancy. I don't give warm fuzzies unless I'm in a warm fuzzy kinda mood. I really haven't been in one of those for quite some time now. But I received an e-mail from another writer here on Myspazz that I truly admire. He'd written a blog in commemoration of his 100th blog. He had mentioned me in it, saying that I was one of the first blogs that he had gotten into.

I'd read the aforementioned blog earlier in the day. I'd seen my name. I'd felt flattered. But I didn't really want to comment. After receiving his e-mail, I felt like it was important to him that I put my little stamp on it, my little "AwesomeZara was here." So I did. Was it really all that necessary? No. But I did it because I respect and admire him as a writer. I did it.... because it felt like he wanted me to.

I don't usually do shit like that.

That isn't what I'm writing about though. I'd like to address the 100th blog issue. There have been a few people on my reading list who have recently posted one of these kinds of blogs. My thought? Who the fuck cares. I've become known as that bitch who knocked people who "blog," so I'll assume that this comes as no surprise to any of you, but throwing a party over 100 blogs posted just seems.... stupid. I can't even think of a better word than that. I don't know if it deserves one.

I've written some pretty stupid fucking blogs over the 1+ year that I've been on Myspazz. I've written ones that have been private. I've written ones that I've deleted 2 hours after posting. I've written ones that were nothing but one line. Hell, I even did a "blog" that's sole purpose was to link back to another blog. Pointless, inane bullshit.

I long ago could have claimed that I'd written my 100th blog, but I've been transferring my older stuff over to my website every couple of weeks now for the last 3 months. My count is currently at about 50. The count over at my website is somewhere in the 200s. (Ugh, none of you INTJ motherfuckers quote me on that shit.) I've deleted blogs as well. Fuck, if I really wanted to, I could post 100 pieces in one DAY. So let me repeat myself: Who the fuck cares about a 100th blog?

The writer does. It's like finishing another chapter in a book that will never be finished. You can look up, glance around and say: "Ooooo! Look! I finished another one!" Woo fucking hoo.

I think the reason why so many people are talking about milestone blogs is because of the phenomenon that is Myspazz. Many of the people who rank on the Top Blog list have large subscriber lists. There is a power behind seeing large numbers. There is some weird voodoo that gets cast over your head when you first see your blog view count go over 1,000. Hell, when you first see it go over 10. You start to hyper-ventilate and start thinking that you want more, more, more, like a gambler at a blackjack table who's just hit his stride.

I know I certainly did. Then nothing was good enough anymore and it just ended up feeling rather sad. I spent about a month in the top 10 ranked blogs and I went insane trying to maintain that. It's a battle to continually show off.

And announcing the arrival of a 100th or 50th or 1st blog is just showing off. It's one thing if you're playing to an audience of 2, those loyal friends of yours that actually want to know what you write about. They could give a shit if you're stroking your own ego. But when you do it knowing that there are hundreds of people reading.... when you do it as a way of saying "Look at me! Tell me I'm cool!".... it's sad.

I'm just an angry bitch with nothing better to do right now than write some shit about some other shit and act as if I know so much better than everyone else.

HEY EVERYBODY! LOOK AT ME!! TELL ME I'M COOL!

Or better yet, tell me I'm Awesome. Just promise me one thing? Only do it if you really feel inclined to. Otherwise.... let it go. And when your 100th blog comes along... let that shit go too.

Just write.